walk without rhythm.

I was feeling generally shitty and bleh when I woke up today, like I couldn't decide if I needed a big hug or a "STOP MOPING" slap in the face. I need to go for a walk or something.

We talked (sort of) about my work in senior writing today. Every time I remember how extremely nervous I was for my first creative writing workshop freshman year, I'm kind of astonished at how much better I've gotten at the whole thing, especially considering that workshop in that first-year class just consisted of you sitting there taking notes and trying to say absolutely nothing while people talked about your stuff. Though it might somehow be a lot more comfortable when I'm actually allowed to talk. Even holding workshops for this current class is almost a joke because they're just very rough drafts and it's more just casually grilling people on where they're going with what without any real pressure. But since I tend to be awkward regardless of whether I'm being critiqued or complimented, it's still kind of ehhhhh for me. After I was explaining one thing, the prof just says, "You're so intimate with your characters. It's almost like they control you." My response to this was like *shifts uncomfortably* "Yeah, well, I'm their bitch," which made everyone laugh. God I'm awkward sometimes.

Sara entertains me on IM by finding the most hilarious plot summaries on adultfanfiction.net. Like ones that end with: Formerly "My immortal" I changed the title because there was two other stories with the same title. LMAO. Yeah. Um. I'm surprised there were only two.

Reply to this meme by yelling 'WORDS!', and I will give you five words that remind me of you.

Then post them in your journal and explain what they mean to you.

Keep in mind that if I don't know you that well, your words might end up kind of odd or weird.

My words from the lovely _tehrin...

1. Star Trek

Haha, I like it a little? The first series I got into, just because it was on during the time of my childhood that I was regularly watching TV after school, was Voyager, though there was some TNG and DS9 sprinkled in there too. The BF had a similar nostalgia for it and kind of randomly bought the entire series to rewatch during our junior year of high school, and thus began our realization of being huge geeks. Voyager I definitely got into for the actual sci-fi intrigue, but TOS encompasses more the strength of character development that's got me pretty damn fangirly over how they were rebooted.

2. Jacob Black

Oh dammit, you made me talk about Twilight. No, honest to god, I read the Twilight books in order to be able to beta read for somebody and while they are every bit as sexist and terribly written as people say, it's a fun universe especially once you get to the werewolves. Jacob Black is a character who anomalously just hops off the page and feels very real in the midst of the obnoxious flawlessness of some of the Cullens and blank slate of Bella's character. Taylor Lautner, he's an awesome kid, but he'll never quite capture the mix of youthful humor and mature confidence that the character has on paper, that is, until his disturbingly castrating fate in the final book, which I did not even finish.

3. writing

It's kind of weird how I've sorta known for most of my life that I would probably end up doing something in writing but never actually got into just doing it in my spare time until--apparently I can be this specific--around the beginning of 2006, which was during my first year in college. Yeah, WTF, self. My life was simpler before I wrote, but I am incapable of taking it back.

4. ontd_startrek

I think most of the reason Star Trek was kind of unanimously irresistible was because the cast just had phenomenal group chemistry all around. (Casting two guys who were ALREADY FRIENDS to play Kirk and Spock? Yay!) This is one of the very few ONTD groups I watch or ever will watch, cause generally I don't really obsess about actors, but they're all pretty hilarious and awesome (and smart, and hot) and will never stop being entertaining.

5. fantasy

Even though I read all kinds of stuff, I'm starting to realize that reading fantasy is always like coming home. Neverwhere and Wicked are the two books that always stay firmly on my list of favorites, but F. L. Block and Philip Pullman have probably actually influenced me the most as a writer. And yeah, my novel is a fantasy, and even in the process of writing in the genre I haven't quite figured out what the common thing is about it that draws me to it so strongly.




Aaand the novel of doom must be done by Tuesday. I'm like 600 words away from the min length. Life is doable.

Happeh thanksgiving if you celebrate it. I'm so excited about all the homemade pie we've got sitting around. Not so excited about the overwhelming amount of pets in the house.

Speaking of delicious things, I got a Delicious, mostly for memming stuff without having to use LJ memories which I'm starting to have finnicky problems with.

There are too many movies I want to see right now, jeez.

As was promised, I am watching a bunch of Skins with my sister over my break. I expected JJ's episode to be better, I don't understand whether we're supposed to understand why everyone wants Effy (cause I don't), and Pandora is practically intolerable. I'm up to the twins episode, which I'm confident will get interesting.

I don't want to take a nap, but I feel like I'm about to pass out.

Leave me a comment saying "Resistance is Futile."
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can satisfy my curiosity.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

My q's from betweenthebliss( some of them spoilery for BSG... )

Eight ships you like :
1. Cook/JJ (Skins)
2. Kara/Lee (BSG)
3. Kirk/Uhura (TOS/Trek XI)
4. Jack/Doctor (Doctor Who)
5. Lucy/Schroeder (Peanuts)
6. Charlie/Daisy (Anansi Boys)
7. Kirk/Spock (Trek XI)
8. Anders/Barolay (BSG)

Four ships you're curious about :
9. Arthur/Merlin (Merlin)
10. Claire/Gretchen (Heroes)
11. Chuck/Blair (Gossip Girl)
12. Lacey/Zoe (Caprica)

Two ships you don't like :
13. Chief/Cally (BSG)
14. Kirk/McCoy (Trek)

( & questions about my shippidy ships )

Uh. I'm getting failed delivery notifications for e-mails I did not send to people I do not know. Should I be worried?

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Subject | From quick and eager visitings
Sent Date | Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:44:13 -0500 11-22-2009 5:44:13 PM
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Reply-To | <orange_wedge33@lycos.com>
To | <petgord34truew@bardo.nl>
I did not give a damn about the crown
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Subject | He knows it not he cannot guess
Sent Date | Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:38:59 -0500 11-22-2009 5:38:59 PM
From | <orange_wedge33@lycos.com>
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To | <43240a3a@maaswaalcollege.nl>
They lie like Fawns reposing
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"They lie like fawns reposing." Guys. Guys. It's the CIA!
...I'm not touching those links.

Got my two essays done and am kind of at the point where I don't have anything unpleasant to do for the rest of the semester. Whoo.
I am too broke right now to actually buy Star Trek and it's kind of depressing that I haven't watched it like three times already since it came out, but it's between waiting a long time and watching it alone, so. And WTH, I keep forgetting that I'll be home on Tuesday. My plans for Thanksgiving break besides reminding my sister to beat me if I'm not working on the novel are for us to watch a ton of Skins. We've been quoting that, "You're not so hot, kid, nobody wants to eat you" line at each other all the time.
And maybe I'll finally catch up on Mad Men since the finale was supposedly quite good.

Today, while folding my laundry, it occurred to me that I ship Uhura/Chapel.
(Such things occur to me while I am folding laundry.)

I TOTES SIGNED UP FOR pilotsbigbang, BEE-YOTCH. Which means I will be smacking some sense into this WIP I've been on-and-very-off working on for so long that it's so not consistent with canon, but oh well. I'm stuck with that cause a certain person wussed out of committing to our collaboration which is already way over 10K. That's right, I'm glaring at you.

I'm going to ask for an extension on a paper for the first time ever tomorrow. I am officially sleeping quite erratically this year. In other news, I'm broke enough that it's impeding on my happiness. Irritability is imminent.

There's this girl at my college I'd never met before who I ate with along with some other acquaintances in the cafeteria today? Looks EXACTLY like Jewel Staite. To the point that I assumed she gets it all the time and waited till she left to point a fork after her and be like, "Kaylee in Firefly? Anybody watch Firefly?" One of the dudes was like, "I've said so before. It's uncanny, isn't it?" Must be, cause I had to try not to be like, "DAMN, woman, you are PRETTY."

It feels so weird to be done with RS. I kind of wanna just sit back and say to myself that I'm gonna focus on just classes and not work on fic for like the rest of the month, but I see that happening for like three days at the most, haha.

Some Champaign MOFOs are having a party tomorrow and a couple of my grad friends should be coming. WIIIN. I have a feeling this plan to go above and beyond the minimum requirement for this 100-level class lit paper by actually reading Alice in Wonderland as an outside source (and making it have something to do with Edible Woman) is going to come under reconsideration for friend times. I have another paper to write for Romance: The Genre that's gonna kick my ass because I've been phoning it in for so much of this semester. If it wasn't comparative I'd be fine; if it was on what we're reading now I'd be fine. But no. I don't want to write on Chretien de Troyes, I...I just don't.

R i s i n g S i g n
[Battlestar Galactica/Star Trek XI crossover]
Characters/Pairings: Starbuck, Kirk, McCoy, Spock. (Kirk/Kara), Kara/McCoy.
Rating: R for language, mild violence and non-explicit sex.
Spoilers for Trek XI and BSG up through "Maelstrom," lots of references to the entire series.
Summary: Loosely in response to this prompt at st_xi_kink. In short: "When Kara Thrace flies through the wormhole near the end of Season Three, she finds Earth-- but not the Earth that Galactica's been searching for. Instead she finds herself hailed by a ship calling itself the USS Enterprise."
Final Word Count: ~39350

...Part One...
...Part Two...
...Part Three...
...Part Four...
...Part Five...
...Part Six...
...Part Seven...
...Part Eight...
...epilogue...

( some tl;dr: why Jim waxes Jungian about Kara, some general comments and thanks, etc. )

( playlist )

Title: Rising Sign
epilogue
Characters/Pairings: Starbuck, Kirk, McCoy, Spock. (Kirk/)Kara/McCoy.
Rating: R for language.
Previous Chapters: (MASTER POST)
Author's Note: It occurs to me that in the course of eight chapters and an epilogue I somehow managed to get Kirk drunk no less than four times despite my confidence in him as a relatively responsible captain. I blame Kara for this.


( I've seen the dangers of your rising sign, but I swear I'd like to drink the fuel straight from your lighter/it's all inside the wrist, it's all inside the way you time it, I resent the way you make me like myself )

Title: Rising Sign
(8/8)
Characters/Pairings: Starbuck, Kirk, McCoy, Spock. (Kirk/Kara), Kara/McCoy.
Rating: R for language.
Spoilers for Trek XI and BSG up through "Maelstrom," lots of references to the entire series.
Summary: Loosely in response to this prompt at st_xi_kink. In short: "When Kara Thrace flies through the wormhole near the end of Season Three, she finds Earth-- but not the Earth that Galactica's been searching for. Instead she finds herself hailed by a ship calling itself the USS Enterprise."
...Part One...Part Two...Part Three...Part Four...Part Five...Part Six...Part Seven...


( And this might really be the boring part, the story she'll never care to tell, because it's so simple... )

Title: Rising Sign
(7/8)
Characters/Pairings: Starbuck, Kirk, McCoy, Spock. (Kirk/)Kara/McCoy.
Rating: R for language.
Spoilers for Trek XI and BSG up through "Maelstrom," lots of references to the entire series.
Summary: Loosely in response to this prompt at st_xi_kink. In short: "When Kara Thrace flies through the wormhole near the end of Season Three, she finds Earth-- but not the Earth that Galactica's been searching for. Instead she finds herself hailed by a ship calling itself the USS Enterprise."
...Part One...Part Two...Part Three...Part Four...Part Five...Part Six...


( Jim, I could use one of your plan C's right now... )

Okay, I always take a long time to wade through my "to read" bookmarks and this fic was posted quite a while back, but if you like the idea of Chris Pike/George Kirk and have actually not read If You Don't Start Drinking (I'm Gonna Leave) by robanybody, DO IT NOW.

"And I'm not stealing the Psi Upsilon mascot. That fucking weasel bit me the last time and I'm not getting that many hypos ever again."

Sometimes, when Chris is yelling at George, he feels like a cartoon character, all eyebrows and a wide open mouth and anger lines spiking up from his head; he feels like his mouth is going to unhinge from his jaw and swallow the world because that's how much George aggravates him. And then George will do something nice, like make him tea and keep everyone away from him all evening so he can study in peace or rub his head when Pike gets his usual tension headaches or stay up with him all night when Pike has insomnia because he knows how much Chris hates being up and alone in the middle of the night, and Chris will forget that he spends most of his time wanting to smother George.

"No weasel," George promises with a shark-like grin that makes Pike uncomfortable because he knows he's not going to like the answer that's coming up.

"Okay, if it's no uniform and no weasel, then what is it?"

"Vegas, baby." George holds his fist out for Pike to bump. "Am I a genius or what?"

Chris stares at his fist like he's confused by the concept of it. "What?"

George looks disappointed by his response. "Dude, we're going to Vegas. You're taking me to Vegas so we can get drunk and gamble and have a lot of drunken sex."

"With each other?" Pike asks in a horrified voice.

April sputters helplessly into his ale, laughing so hard that he almost chokes. "Oh, Christopher," he sighs once he's finally managed to get a hold of himself, "you truly are one of my most favorite people in this world."

At first I had to sort of put aside that I couldn't really see Pike as the kind of naive sidekick of George's dude clique, but once I got into the feel of his relationship with Kirk I actually thought it made a lot of sense, and by the end you definitely see how this Christopher could eventually become the Pike we know from the movie. This fic is just downright hilarious and sweet, and is one of those gems that actually works better because it doesn't feel very futuristic. Cause some things you can believe won't ever change, and maybe every fandom needs some form of fanfiction depicting Las Vegas shenanigans.

one-shot, rated R, read it here.

I got paired with a real aggressive bastard in fencing today. Like, we can all see that you're bigger and faster than pretty much anybody in this class, I think you can get your hits in without actually bruising me around the ribs in the process. Jeez. :/

I got rear-ended on my way home from the store. It wasn't a big deal, but oh god, I was so glad that the cop we called decided the damage wasn't bad enough to write a report, because I just happened to be cleaning out my wallet earlier and hadn't put my up-to-date insurance card back in before I left (I had the old one for some reason so I was able to give that information to the other person). Of course I would've gotten out of trouble when I could prove I was insured later on, but I'm pretty sure they have to confiscate your car on the spot if you don't have the card and that would've been a no good very bad day, especially when, um, everyone I know well enough to ask for a ride lives almost an hour away D:

I have...a mixed attitude on the flavored tobacco ban. I'm not like pissed because I don't exactly want to fervently defend tobacco companies and I'm far, far from being a regular smoker, but...I'm probably not going to be able to get clove cigarettes anymore and I love those. I've heard mixed reports on whether Djarum products are about to be illegal, but the guy in my senior writing class seemed pretty sure that they will be. I just...ugh. Don't get me started on this notion that young people who start smoking are going to not start smoking because they can't get their cutesy nasty strawberry cigars. Cause when you can't LEGALLY buy it you're totally going to be selective. I don't know how the minors at my high school got their cigarettes, but I sure as hell wasn't seeing them smoke anything flavored. The fractional libertarian in me will be raging at this for a while. Wow, I guess I am a little pissed.

I watched The Plan, and seemingly loved it more than 90% of BSG fandom. I'll have to get out a real reaction post soon.

This is my mix for betweenthebliss's truly frakking awesome startrekbigbang contribution, "Reconciliation". :D

Post contains SPOILERS for the fic.

Title: Rising Sign
(6/8)
Characters/Pairings: Starbuck, Kirk, McCoy, Spock. (Kirk/)Kara/McCoy.
Rating: R for language.
Spoilers for Trek XI and BSG up through "Maelstrom," lots of references to the entire series.
Summary: Loosely in response to this prompt at st_xi_kink. In short: "When Kara Thrace flies through the wormhole near the end of Season Three, she finds Earth-- but not the Earth that Galactica's been searching for. Instead she finds herself hailed by a ship calling itself the USS Enterprise."
...Part One...Part Two...Part Three...Part Four...Part Five


( Thrace, if you've got something to say, we better get it over with. )

CAN ANYBODY GIVE ME A GMAIL INVITE?

I'LL BE YOUR BITCH. OR SOMETHING.

ORANGE_WEDGE33@LYCOS.COM

MY LIFE LATELY: I HATE MY NOVEL I LOVE MY NOVEL I HATE MY NOVEL I LOVE MY NOVEL I HATE HATE HATE IT I FUCKING LOVE IT IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME BAWL. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A ROUGH DRAFT, JESUS CHRIST.

I GOT A LOT OF TIME TO WORK ON R.S. YESTERDAY THOUGH. ENDING IS COMING ALONG I THINK.

I HAVE TO TAKE THREE 300 LEVEL CLASSES NEXT SEMESTER. I SOMEHOW FORGOT THAT I'D DUG MYSELF INTO THAT HOLE.

I NEED A GODDAMN WORD COUNT ON THIS BITCH. ALL I THINK ABOUT ANYMORE IS STAR TREK AND KARA THRACE AND MY EFFING NOVEL, WHAT THE HELL. I STILL CAN'T HELP FEELING LIKE A PRETENTIOUS MORON EVEN MENTIONING THAT I'M WRITING "A NOVEL." I KEEP FORGETTING I ALSO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE. NEW TAG: "NOVEL OF DOOM."

ALSO I HAVE REALIZED THAT GUMMY LIFE SAVERS ARE MY FAVORITE CANDY. ALSO I STARTED FENCING CLASS AND IT'S HELLA FUN. MY ARMS HURT.

I know everybody's probably sick of hearing/talking about the Polanski thing, but WTF, this Askmen. com commentary? I can't even begin on the absurdity of comparing this to Letterman's situation, much less the trivializing attitude of the entire column. Some content just isn't fair game for satire, if that's what this complete ass is going for.

Why, why, WHY must it be so hot in this dorm?!?

I got a very, very good laugh out of the bulletin board our RA put up where people are supposed to etch down cute little doodles of what they're dressing up as for Halloween. Somebody is being the Riddler, and all the comments that people were writing down in response to other people's responses have, over the course of an evening, escalated into some kind of guerilla magic marker flame war over who's the biggest comic book geek. ("The Joker might be brilliant, but Riddler's the only character who rivals Batman in his detective skills." "FUCK YOU, I'M NOT EVEN DISPUTING THAT.") I gotta show this to my sister and my Batman-obsessed friend when they come to visit tomorrow. I should troll on the thing, just be like "HUSH is the bestest Batman volume EVAR!11!" It's funny how I'm not much of a comics reader but I know enough to be able to piss off the purists.

I find myself revisiting a lot of 90s music lately.
You know, a while back a friend of mine made fun of me for having a Stone Temple Pilots ring tone. I was kind of puzzled by the suggestion that it was anything to be embarrassed about. It makes me feel like I am indeed getting older when it doesn't occur to me that my guilty pleasures are guilty pleasures.

Pick a fandom, any fandom I'm in. I will tell you:
1. One True Pairing Ship:
2. Canon Ship:
3. "If this happens I'll stab my eyes out with a spork" Ship:
4. "You are one sick puppy" Ship:
5. "I dabble a little" Ship:
6. "It's like a car crash" Ship:
7. "Tickles my fancy but not sold just yet" Ship:
8. "Makes no canon sense but why the heck not" Ship:
9. "Everyone else loves it but I just don't feel it" Ship:


My sister made me watch a few episodes of Skins, starting with season 3 cause she thinks it has better characters than the first couple seasons. In its happier moments, it reminds me of the atmosphere I attempted to create with my high-school-kids-based-on-Peanuts-characters composite novel I wrote for a senior seminar (I am aware that one, it's absurd that I got credit for writing something like that and two, Dog Sees God exists, but it's a little too dark in my opinion), which makes watching it kind of surreal, especially since in my head I can't stop thinking that JJ=Schroeder. Though actually it didn't take me too long to compare the Freddy/JJ/Cook group to James/Remus/Sirius, and the comparison has really stuck in my head. I have a feeling it all gets way more depressing at some point, but it's also pretty damn funny at some points. Somebody explain to me why Cook is my favorite. I'm too embarrassed to even say who I ship as of yet, so let's let those opinions ferment for a while.

Thank god the seasons are short though. I feel like I no longer want to devote the time to getting into TV fandoms. If I'm not immediately addicted in the first few episodes I just give up.